Monday, May 26, 2014

Challenges

t sounds like you will all have such a fun summer! I hope that next year will be the same, or maybe I will just have to save up all my money and go on a nation wide tour to visit everyone.
So this week has probably been the hardest week of my life. I have felt a constant attack from satan, and it is really frustrating. I will be just fine, but it will take time and I am still going to have my off days, but I am learning how to take a break to feel each emotion instead of putting them away and having a HUGE meltdown later. I got a really powerful blessing from my district leader this Saturday that helped me get some peace and comfort. I also have been learning how to pray more earnestly. I am finding that you have to constantly improve. Even though I thought that I had spirituality figured out when I left, I am being very humbled out here and I am learning that I have a long way to go. It seems that there is always a new level that you can move up to.
Also Sister Houtz and I get along great! I know that I don't mention her very often, but it doesn't mean we don't get along. I actually really love Sister Houtz. We have been through a lot together. She is going through the wringer as well. We were definitely placed together at the time that we needed each other. She really encourages me and helps me keep going when I need it.
This week we had zone conference. It was really good. We were assigned to read a talk about being a consecrated missionary. It talks about what we need to give up to be fully consecrated to the Lord. The first time I read through it I felt like I was the worst missionary ever, but then I went through it again and I felt better about it. When we got to zone conference I found out that I was not the only missionary that had felt the pressure. It seemed that the only missionaries that didn't feel that way were the ones who were going home in a transfer or two who had already become a consecrated missionary. I felt much better about it after that.
We have been struggling with investigators this week. We didn't have anyone come to church this week. It was really frustrating. We don't know what is going on with them. We hope that we can get in better contact with them and see what is stopping them from progressing. We just keep working hard because we know that it will pay off. The Lord has been blessing us immensely with fantastic numbers these past few weeks. It has helped us to feel much better about everything else. I just have to keep telling myself that things will get better, because they will. It is all in the Lord's hand.
Anyway I love you all so much! Tell everyone to have a great last week of school!